Over the past few years whilst I’ve been blogging and more recently tweeting, I’ve “met” some amazingly, wonderful and supportive people, who I would like to say are friends, in as much as a person can be whom you have never actually met.
We’ve shared highs and lows, offered and received support, congratulated on success and achievements cried at loses and chatted about random nonsense.
I’ve gotten used to seeing certain names pop up in comments, emails or tweets; I notice when they aren’t there for any length of time.
Some have just stopped.
Profiles and blogs still exist, but aren’t updated, nothing is shared.
Others are gone.
Deleted as though they were never even there.
I first started thinking about how to bow out of blogging if and when I felt ready last year.
One lady, who like me has been living with PND, just disappeared. We’d formed a kind of bond, we knew what the other was going through, offered support and tried to boost each other when things got tough.
I know she’d had a relapse with her depression, she was struggling hard to keep things together, naturally blogging took a back seat at such times.
But she never came back, and it’s been over a year.
Knowing just how bad her bouts of depression got, I can’t help but wonder if she did something, whether she reached that dark abyss where you think you have nothing and no one to live for, where ending it is really the only option to make everything better.
I’m pissed at her for doing that.
For just cutting off and……………………..nothing, leaving me and no doubt others wondering if she’s okay.
Because whilst any relationship formed via social media has to be taken with a grain of salt, you can’t help but become invested.
For someone to just walk away without a word seems, almost rude.
A simple “goodbye” doesn’t seem like asking for much, but maybe I’m reading too much in to all this.
Maybe, it’s just way these kind of relationships go, here one day and gone the next.
Do we owe it to our online community to say “thanks and goodbye”?
Or is it perfectly fine to accept support from others, get them emotionally invested to a degree in our lives and then one day just disappear without a word, knowing you most likely leave some wondering what has happened.
Whatever her reasons for disappearing, I just hope she is happy and finally finding some peace from her depression.